“What may be the result of the unhappy rencontre which
is to take place in the morning between Mr.
Barton and myself, cannot of course be predicted by me. In the
supposition that it will be fatal, I bid you farewell, in the only language
that is now left to me, I am perfectly indifferent as to myself, but I trust
most earnestly that Mr. Barton (toward whom I have not the
faintest enmity of any kind) may escape. I admit that I am in the
wrong—that by giving him a blow, I have forced him into the position of a
challenger; and that by not doing what he has, he would have blasted his
character as a gentleman for ever. In common justice I am bound thus to absolve
him from all suspicion of unbecoming conduct respecting the challenge. The
provocation, though slight, was still a provocation, which I could not
overlook. It is out of the question for me to explain, retract, or apologize. I
will not hear of any settlement short of some abject and craven submission from
him. Mr. Barton is a talking man, who dwells very
complacently on his own skill as a marksman; on his experience as a duellist,
and on his accuracy as a person of ton. I pretend to none of those things, and therefore must
oppose the most inflexible obstinacy.
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