Astarte: a Fragment of Truth
Theresa Villiers to Lady Byron, 9 July [1816]
Knightsbridge.
Tuesday July 9th [1816].
No words can tell you my dear Lady Byron the
comfort & relief which your last letter just arrived has afforded me—The extract which you sent
me in your former one was, to my mind, anything but satisfactory—it was confession without
penitence—& I thought I saw a fancied security of ignorance in all the world but you (of
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whose generous discretion she had no fear,) that would
prevent any change of feeling or conduct, except towards you
individually—& I will own to you that I found my feelings more changed towards her than I ever
meant they should be—I felt that I could not answer for my forbearance if she should in
conversation to me either express herself too warmly towards him, or too coldly towards you—& I was
growing quite nervous at the thoughts of her return to Town—All this is done away completely by the perusal of your last letter—I think I am justified in saying very confidently that her mind was purity & innocence itself, & now
her eyes are really opened as to the enormity she has been led into, her former feelings &
principles will I really hope & believe return with double force—provided always—that he does not return—& that I trust is a very
improbable event—Her having a just sense of gratitude to you is a great point in her favour—&
the more she reflects on your unparalleled kindness to her the more it must
increase daily. There is an expression in her last letter to me which struck me at the moment I
read it but does so much more forcibly now—Speaking of her own grievances, & some that had
lately occurred to us, she says “What a world this is! & yet I am quite unfit for the
next”—it shows how much the horror of her past conduct is uppermost in her mind—& if it
does but continue so, the next step must be to try with your kind
assistance, to make herself more fit for the next—it is now in a good train & every letter of
yours will do more and more good—I fancy she will be in town (at the Apartments in St. James’s)
about next Saturday. I see her great anxiety is to come before Hobhouse goes.
John Cam Hobhouse, baron Broughton (1786-1869)
Founder of the Cambridge Whig Club; traveled with Byron in the orient, radical MP for
Westminster (1820); Byron's executor; after a long career in politics published
Some Account of a Long Life (1865) later augmented as
Recollections of a Long Life, 6 vols (1909-1911).