Astarte: a Fragment of Truth
Theresa Villiers to Lady Byron, 18 July 1816
Knightsbridge.
July 18th 1816.
I almost fear you must have thought me ungrateful for all the kindness of all
your letters by having been silent so long—but in truth my silence has proceeded from a wish to
have it in my power to communicate anything to you respecting poor A.—which should be at all satisfactory. I cannot tell you much
now—but your letter of yesterday just arrived determines me to write—She came sooner than she
expected being ordered to come up for the Regent’s fete—She
wrote to me the preceding day to prepare her dress for her, & therefore when we first met (an
interview wh. I own I dreaded beyond measure) our whole conversation turned
on Gauzes & Sattins—but I was foolishly dissatisfied—I thought her
looking quite stout & well (wh. bye the bye she still does) & perfectly cool & easy,
having apparently nothing on her mind but what there was abundance of ostensible cause for—this
rather provoked me—the next day I had your letter to give her & I will own to you it made me so
nervous I could not do it—indeed considering all that had passed on your subject before she left
London it would have been quite unnatural for me to have given it without asking to see it, or
questioning her as to its contents—I therefore left it in the Carriage, & at the end of my
visit I told her I had it there & would send it in by the servant. She looked rather surprised
but not alarmed—I sent it with its envelope to me—the next day I went there—but determined to ask
no questions—at last—when the Child & maid were in the room she asked me if she shd. return me
your note—I said “oh yes,” & then asked if yours to her was kind. She said “very much
so”—“particularly so”—I
238 |
|
LADY BYRON AND MRS LEIGH (II) |
merely replied “I was sure it would
be—remember I always told you how kind she was about you”—to this no reply—I ask’d about your
health she said it was but indifferent—& then the subject dropped—& has never been
renewed—Yesterday, for the first time, she dined here, & was here between 4 and 5 hours, &
I must say that in my life I never saw any thing equal to her dejection—her absence—her whole mind
evidently preoccupied & engrossed—& apparently insensible of being in society—Mr. V., who really exerted himself & commanded himself much
better than I expected to shew her as much kindness as before, tells me that while I was called out
of the room to speak to a person, he could not extract an answer—even a monosyllable from
her—except when he joked about the predicted destruction of the world to-day—& said (a propos
to some arrangements which the boys wanted to make) “We need not give ourselves any trouble
about it for the world will be at an end to-morrow & that will put an end to all our
cares”—she quite exclaimed before the boys, the servants, &c., “I don’t know what you may all be but I’m sure I’m not prepared for the
next world, so I hope this will last”—this seemed the only topic that roused her—This looks
well for her mind—if this feeling is well kept up I hope every thing from it with
time—but do not think me brutal or even unkind if I tell you the work is not done yet—I
accidentally found yesterday by her question about foreign postage of letters that she was going to
write to Ld. B. to-day—it is perhaps natural even necessary that
she should write for the purpose of breaking off that correspondence—but till that1 is fairly & completely broken through—there will be but
little good done depend upon it—& as nobody can do anything but you I
mention this that you may enforce its necessity in any manner you think best—From my manner to her
individually I am positive she cannot guess that I am better informed than when we last met—but
what she may infer from my total silence on his subject I know
239 |
|
ASTARTE |
not—but I am sure she thinks I have a motive for she
scarcely ever mentions him herself, & if she does, it is in a sort of way as if she was shy of
his name which never was the case before—She told me she was sure my parcel had gone safe (a parcel
I had entrusted to Mr. Fletcher for a person at Lausanne)
as they had passed a day at Lausanne—Another day she told me she had seen
Messrs Hobhouse & Davies together & that they were going to Geneva directly—upon which I merely
said “is Lord B. still there”—She said “yes—or near there” &
then told me something of a boat in which he was going round the Lake & that
Hobhouse said his crew would be drowned by his management, but that he wd. be safe by swimming. Then after the
fête she told me Miss Mercer had come
up & spoken to her there, had been very gracious & enquired very much
about Geneva, & this I think in the whole week she has been in town are the only
instances of her mentioning or rather alluding to him.
She has ceased to speak of Mr. Wilmot
with any harshness, & in short I hope there is a very great amendment—but if the evil is not
well eradicated, I feel convinced that he [Byron] will regain at
pleasure his ascendancy over her mind—Mr. W. has as yet had no private
conversation with her but he told me last night he meant to have some & to talk of you—your
merits &c.—& to say that he knew there were people who considered you as cold hearted,
unforgiving, &c & that he advised her (A) to put a
stop to that sort of language whenever she heard it in any friends of hers, or it would be the
worse for her—I see no objection to this—but he promises me to do it in a kind way. He tells me he
is going abroad with Mr. Ward [Lord Dallas]
for six weeks—A. will I believe stay till after the 12th August. Nothing can
be worse than their affairs, pecuniarily—nothing can be more tiresome & impracticable than
Colonel L. of which alas! she seems more than ever
aware—What they are to do I cannot guess. The Duke of Leeds is
to petition Lord Liverpool, but in these days of reduction he
can
240 |
|
LADY BYRON AND MRS LEIGH (II) |
have no chance unless by an arrangement such as was proposed last year
with Warwick Lake—A’s child is a fine one & she goes on
nursing successfully!!
Now I think I have told you all I know about her & tho’ it is dully & prosily told I know the subject will
interest you—Depend upon it she will never open her heart to me—or indeed to
anyone—but to me she could not—considering the part she has frequently made
me take in her concerns upon a perfect persuasion of her innocence for the last three years. I
daresay you are quite right in believing that she never transgressed during your residence in
Piccadilly—I can perfectly imagine her having quieted her conscience by that salve—& it
accounts (satisfactorily) for much of her conduct.
[I omit a passage dealing with the health of Lady
Byron & Mr. Villiers, which follows
here.—Ed.]
God bless you my dear Lady Byron—Do not hate
me for this voluminous production—the next shall be more laconic—but in all ways & at all times
you will find me most truly and
Affectionately yours,
Scrope Berdmore Davies (1782-1852)
Byron met his bosom friend while at Cambridge. Davies, a professional gambler, lent Byron
funds to pay for his travels in Greece and Byron acted as second in Davies' duels.
William Fletcher (1831 fl.)
Byron's valet, the son of a Newstead tenant; he continued in service to the end of the
poet's life, after which he was pensioned by the family. He married Anne Rood, formerly
maid to Augusta Leigh, and was living in London in 1831.
John Cam Hobhouse, baron Broughton (1786-1869)
Founder of the Cambridge Whig Club; traveled with Byron in the orient, radical MP for
Westminster (1820); Byron's executor; after a long career in politics published
Some Account of a Long Life (1865) later augmented as
Recollections of a Long Life, 6 vols (1909-1911).
Sir Robert John Wilmot- Horton, third baronet (1784-1841)
Byron's cousin; he was MP for Newcastle under Lyme (1818-30), governor of Ceylon
(1831-37), and was Augusta Leigh's representative at the destruction of Byron's memoir; he
succeeded to his title in 1834.
Warwick Lake, third viscount Lake (1783-1848)
The youngest son of the first viscount; in 1815 he married Elizabeth Duncan, and he
succeeded his brother in 1836; the peerage became extinct upon his death.
Hon. Augusta Mary Leigh [née Byron] (1783-1851)
Byron's half-sister; the daughter of Amelia Darcy, Baroness Conyers, she married
Lieutenant-Colonel George Leigh on 17 August 1807.
George Leigh (1771-1850)
Officer in the 10th Light Dragoons, gambler, and boon companion of the Prince of Wales;
he married Augusta Byron in 1807.
Hon. George Villiers (1759-1827)
The son of Thomas Villiers, first earl of Clarendon; in 1798 he married Theresa Parker,
daughter of the first Baron Boringdon.
Hon. Theresa Villiers [née Parker] (1775-1856)
The daughter of John Parker, first baron Boringdon; in 1798 she married George Villiers,
son the first earl of Clarendon. She was related to Byron through Augusta, daughter of
Admiral Byron, who had married a Parker.
John William Ward, earl of Dudley (1781-1833)
The son of William Ward, third Viscount Dudley (d. 1823); educated at Edinburgh and
Oxford, he was an English MP, sometimes a Foxite Whig and sometimes Canningite Tory, who
suffered from insanity in his latter years.