Astarte: a Fragment of Truth
Lady Byron to Sir Francis Hastings Doyle, 29 January 1820
“I defer to Dr. Lushington’s opinion with
respect to the danger of entering into a direct correspondence with Lord
Byron—I will state my objections to the measure which he proposes to substitute
“1st. I think it is highly desirable that I should be
able to produce to any one a copy of my declaration to Lord B—
on this subject—If that declaration were contained in a letter to Mrs Leigh, I must, in showing it, either explain fully how she and
I are circumstanced, or else inferences contrary to the truth would be drawn from the fact of my
treating her thus confidentially.—
2ndly Supposing that objection could be
obviated—Mrs L— is herself sufficiently alarmed about the consequences of his measures, but I
have no reason to think that she can influence him.—I foresee from the
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transmission of such a letter in substance as Dr L’s first (which I believe she would transmit,
if urged to do so—with her own comments), this consequence:—that, an
unreserved disclosure from her to him being necessitated, they would combine together against me—he
being actuated by revenge—she by fear—whereas, from her never having dared to inform him that she
has already admitted his guilt to me with her own, they have hitherto been prevented from acting in
concert—The transmission of the cursory observation suggested in Dr L’s note, and the equivalent of what I have said to her, would not in my
opinion have any effect. Lord B— is not intimidated by terms so
general. The addition which you suggest of the paragraph—‘Lord
B— is probably by no means aware of the extent of the information of which I was
possessed before our separation, nor of the additional proofs, as well as new facts, which
have since come to my knowledge’—would render the communication more pointed (bringing it perhaps
into the same case with the first) but I perceive objections to the clause
underlined. For, my information previous to my separation having been derived either directly from
Lord B— or from my observations on that part of his conduct which he exposed
to my view—the expression ‘he is probably not aware’ would seem a contradiction, at least unless
guarded by something to this effect—‘As the infatuation of pride may have blinded him to the
conclusions which must inevitably be established by a long series of circumstantial evidences’—The
same clause also appears objectionable to me as coinciding with the story of my having used
clandestine means to obtain information—An invention doubtless designed to invalidate the force, or
impair the respectability of my probable statements—on the same principle as he contrived to cast
on Lady C L1—the suspicion of a
forgery in order to destroy the effect of her evidence against him.—These insidious endeavours
render it in my opinion the more necessary for me to have made my
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protest,—in terms of greater decision than I have yet employed, and in such a
form as to be recorded,—before an attack is made upon the credibility of my testimony.—And in one
case, which it is painful to me to calculate upon, such a declaration would be almost the sole,
though inadequate proof of my conscious integrity—viz—If I were to survive him—for it would then be
impossible for me to vindicate myself by accusation from the posthumous
charges which could not, probably, be otherwise disproved.—
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“I have to ask—would not such a communication to Lord
B— from my father—authorised by me—answer the desired ends without being liable to the
same objections as a letter from myself—
“The chief points in that communication to be—
“The information of my declining to peruse the MS—A representation of the
injurious consequences of its circulation to Ada—and a
declaration that I shall consider the existence of such a Memoir (avowedly destined for future publication) especially if it be circulated in MS—at
present, as releasing me from even the shadow of an engagement to suppress the facts of my own
experience, or the corroborating proofs of Lord B’s character
& conduct—that reluctant as I have ever been to bring my domestic concerns before the public,
and anxious as I have felt to save from ruin a near connection of his, I shall feel myself
compelled by duties of primary importance, if he perseveres in accumulating injuries upon me, to
make a disclosure of the past in the most authentic form.—
“The last sentence requires very great caution—& I have only given the
substance.—This allusion to Mrs L— is not so likely as that which she might convey, to necessitate her
acknowledgment to him. At the same time it would have equal force.—I do not conceive that such a
communication would absolutely bind me at this time to publish my case, if he should, (relying on
the
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advantage of an intervening sea,) return an answer of defiance.—”
Lady Caroline Lamb [née Ponsonby] (1785-1828)
Daughter of the third earl of Bessborough; she married the Hon. William Lamb (1779-1848)
and fictionalized her infatuation with Lord Byron in her first novel,
Glenarvon (1816).
Hon. Augusta Mary Leigh [née Byron] (1783-1851)
Byron's half-sister; the daughter of Amelia Darcy, Baroness Conyers, she married
Lieutenant-Colonel George Leigh on 17 August 1807.
Stephen Lushington (1782-1873)
Barrister, judge, and Whig MP; educated at Eton and at Christ Church, Oxford, he advised
Lady Byron on a separation from Lord Byron in 1816.