Lady Morgan’s Memoirs
Thomas Charles Morgan to Sydney Owen, [14] December 1811
Baron’s Court,
December [14], 1811.
My yesterday’s letter will be a sufficient answer
to yours of this morning. I can only repeat, that I will no more consent to
delay and trifling, and that I consider your fulfilment of your sacred promise
as the touchstone of your affection, and the only means of regaining my
confidence, at present, I confess, somewhat in abeyance.
I do not mean to accuse you of deceit, as you have so
often said, but while your wishes extend in proportion to my facility in
complying with them—while your love of pleasure (now no longer disguised)
exceeds your love for me, and your regard for your own honour and pledged
word—while your
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letters alternately breathe hot and
cold as to marrying at all, you cannot wonder that I
think you tired of your bargain, and I am anxious to
reduce to certainty my hopes and fears on points so entirely involving my
complete life. Professions of love are easily made; but if you really have that
regard for me which I suppose, place cannot make so much
difference. Your hatred of this place is an insult which any, less
foolishly-fond than myself, would seriously resent. You complain of my
irritable feelings; they are your own creation; from the very first hour of our
intimacy, either from want of tact, or from disregard of
it, you have kept them afloat, and when the cup is full you cannot wonder if a
drop makes it run over.
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