Lady Morgan’s Memoirs
Sydney Owenson to Thomas Charles Morgan, 27 December 1811
December, 27th, 1811.
“And the last note is shorter than the
first.” I totally despair of ever writing you a legitimate letter
again, and you have met with a more formidable rival in O’Donnel, of Tirconnel, than all your
jealous brain ever fancied in Generals, Aides-de-Camp, and Dublin Lawyers. I have not yet got through the Pacata, and have
obtained permission to keep it another day. I delight in my story, and my hero,
and shall throw myself tête
baissée this winter to the best of passions—Love
and Fame. Heaven send the latter do not find its
extinction in the former, and depend upon it, dear, had
I asked your leave to stay in Dublin three months, you
would have knocked me down. I will do all you desire on the subject of odious
business, and I shall write to you (barring O’Donnel) to-morrow, fully on it, and if I do not, believe, as Sappho says, “the less my words, the more my love appears.”
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Dearest friend, protector, guardian, guide,—every day draws me closer to
you by ties (I trust) which Death only can break. There was so much of force in the commencement of this business, that my
heart was frightened back from the course it would naturally
have taken. I have now had time to reflect
myself into love for you—how much deeper and fonder than that mere
engouement which first
possessed me; do not fear me, my dear friend, once decided upon rational grounds, I am immoveable, and I am as much yours as if the Archbishop of Canterbury had
given his blessing to the contract; by your wishing to get all business out of
the way, I suppose I am to be met at the door by Mr. Bowen* with his prayer-book in one hand and you in
the other, and “will you, Sydney, take
this man,” &c., &c. Heavens, what a horror! but you really cannot
mean to take me, shattered and shaken after a long, dislocating journey! Let me
at least, like other innocent victims, be fed before I
am offered.
Sappho (612 BC c.-570 BC c.)
Greek lyric poet, born on the Isle of Lesbos.