William Godwin: his Friends and Contemporaries
Ch. VI. 1794-1796
Thomas Holcroft to William Godwin, 22 July 1795
“Had I not forgotten the place of Dr Parr’s residence, you would have
received the ‘Lamentations of Jeremiah’
from me. You would have heard how I fell from a slip ladder, and broke it
fairly in two; how, with difficulty, I kept what your friend at Hatton calls
soul and body together; how I endeavoured to overcome the extreme pain, but at
last was obliged, partly by entreaty
and partly by
precaution to send for a village surgeon; how he took a full basin of blood
from me; how, half an hour after his departure, the spasms with which I had
before been seized assaulted me with two-fold, or, for aught I know, with
ten-fold malignity; how I was obliged to send to Exeter for another Dr in
search of ease; how he affirmed my ribs were broken; how I believe they were
not, but am not quite certain; how he made me swallow potions which proved to
be opiates, and which indeed relieved me in part from spasm, but consigned me
over to drowsy stupidity, which to me appeared a more intolerable evil; how I
was roused from this lethargic struggle after existence by a severe fit of the
gout; how I lay with my joints burning and my muscles cramped and twisted,
during which I had full leisure for the display of my system ‘of
resistance to pain;’ how I persuaded myself, in spite of my tormentors,
that my system was true; how it induced me to laugh and joke, and exercise my
little wits on all that came within my sphere of action; how some believed I
was in pain, and some believed I was not; and how difficult I found it to
define to myself what pain is. In short, like my predecessor Grumio, I would have told you a very tragical
tale, had not my ignorance of your local existence prevented me.
“The gout has not yet left me, though I carry it about
in a very clandestine kind of a manner; and till it has disappeared, I am
advised not to bathe again; being further advised that bathing would be very
good for me. Hence you will perceive I have not escaped that Tyrant
Necessity—(if you can tell me when I shall, pray send me the intelligence by
express, I will venture the expense)—and that the Necessity of which I am now
the slave is uncertainty.
“I have had occasion to talk of you, or rather of your
essence, your ‘Political
Justice,’ and your ‘Caleb.’ If you suppose I understand
you, I need not tell you in what terms I spoke. I sometimes doubt whether it be
right, i.e., necessary, to declare sentiments of
personal affection; yet I still seem more strongly to doubt whether it be right
totally to omit such declarations; for impossible as it is that men should
perceive utility, or if you will virtue,
and not love it, yet the temporary uncertainties
to which the clearest minds appear to be subject, may render declarations
concerning our feelings necessary. To what accidents you or I shall hereafter
be liable is more than either of us can positively
determine; but it seems to me our minds have proceeded too far for there to be
any probability that our sentiments respecting each
other should suffer any great change. Still, if it be pleasure to remind each
other that we deserve and possess something more than mutual esteem, I see no
good motive for abstaining from the enjoyment of this pleasure.
“I hope you have renewed your visits in Newman Street.
As this letter will perhaps be a more circumstantial narrative of my late
disaster than any they have yet received, be kind enough to communicate the
contents at home.
“Mr Cooper,
partly in consequence of my desire, and partly, as I suppose, from the
decisions of his own judgment, remains near me some time to pursue his studies.
I wish, perhaps more than a wise man ought, to be at home. Whether this
impulse, or the hope of re-establishing my health shall prevail, must be left
to future circumstances: my return, however, cannot be very distant.
“How came I to omit saying that you have a few warm
admirers here, and that the report of your second edition has committed
homicide upon the first? In my opinion, should the publishing be delayed,
both will be injured.”
Thomas Abthorpe Cooper (1776-1849)
Educated by William Godwin, he performed with Stephen Kemble's company before emigrating
to America in 1796 where he enjoyed great success as an actor and theater manager.
Samuel Parr (1747-1825)
English schoolmaster, scholar, and book collector whose strident politics and assertive
personality involved him in a long series of quarrels.